Saturday, October 13, 2007
10 things i hate about myself
There's a hunger in me that only you can fill, no one will understand it the way I do~
"I hate myself that I love the way you look into my eyes, that I would gazed into the depths of the unconscious,
I hate myself that I love the way you smile, that I would melt right in front of you,
I hate myself that I love the way you smell, that I would wish I could wake up to the scent of you every morning,
I hate myself that I love the way you call my name, that I would yearn for you to call me when I’m not with you,
I hate myself that I love the way your breathe caresses my cheeks, that I would long just for that one kiss from that lips,
I hate myself that I love the way your body brushes against mine, that I would shiver and long to be in your arms for just one night,
I hate myself that I love the way your body moves, that I would long so very much to be a part of the excitement in your life,
I hate myself that I love the way you talk about your life, that I would wonder whether your plans could include me,
I hate myself that I love the way you make me laugh, that I would ask myself ‘Will she ever love me?’
I hate it that you belong to someone else, I hate myself that I love you and above all I hate myself that I love you more than myself"
Pravin
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
Leaving on a Jet Plane
Mood: Happy, a bit high... could have been happier, thanks to ..........!!!
I wanna apologize to all my faithful readers, for not updating my blog for ages. I haven't been really inspired recently, don't know what's wrong with my brain, I think it's fucked 'cause I say "Fuck your brain lar!!!" too much, I guess, laugh lar....
Just came back from Asia Cafe, had a drizzle of beers with Chris, Pravin, Magesh, ShalinBellyGal, Alex, Ashwin, Emerson and Edmund. I had were Tiger beer mixed with Guinness stout. Love it. I really like stout, it's bitter but has a sweet after taste, something like a relationship, huh... I think I'm still high how, was high there though, talked cock damn loudly and Janice had to ask me to turn the volume knob anti-clockwise on me. Hehe, sorry for embarrassing my brothers. Just couldn't control myself, I was born to become a Kampung fella, sorry ar...
Bro, your tears don't mean a thing to her. Stop building castles, she doesn't mean anything to you, not even as much as a dirt. If you ever shed a tear again, she's gonna fucking get it. I'm not joking and I fucking mean it, although I hate to do this.
Went to Redang Island with ADPians, "led" by Miss Alice and Miss Su-Ann. It was really fun. Guess what? We stayed in Laguna Redang Resort, right at the beach where the Hong Kong movie, Summer Love was shot. The beach was beautiful, brilliant, splendid; water was crystal clear, salty... I'm running out of words; it's the real Laguna Beach, check it out yourself. Got to know Janice, Estee, Haruka, Andrew, Sean, Max and Molly better. Met new friends like Ray, Sayuri, Mohammed, Mohdi, MoJo aka Mario aka Andrew aka Bumblebee and Brian. It's really a disgrace that I didn't know that some of them exist in ADP before the trip. Sorry... By the way, Janice is the Char Siew, Estee is the Roasted Chicken, Haruka is the Siew Yok now, and I'm the Roasted Pig now, fresh from Redang. HAHAHAHAHA!!!!
During the trip, Purdue University replied me. It was a positive reply, Purdue even congratulated me on the admission to the university, standard procedure lar. Haha... I was jumping around in my computer room, singing Glory Glory Man United, when I read that reply at the night that I got home from Redang. YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Leaving in late December, and I can't believe that my time in ADP is reaching and end. So many memories, both happy and sad. Oh yeah, Dad 1-0 me by telling me that I'm going to England on my way to the States. In the end, the plan was called off as we'll need to pay RM2000 extra for the multi-city stopover ticket. I built castles again, castles of watching The Red Devils playing against Everton at the Theatre of Dreams. Damn, I wanna be rich, to the extent that this fucking RM2000 means RM2 to me. FUCK!!!! It's always about the money, isn't it?
Nonetheless, I'm rather happy that I'm going to the States. Sometimes, you just have to be contented with life, don't you? Bill Gates said to Larry King before, "Life is not fair - get used to it." Guess that's a good statement.
Okie, don't know what to blog now, gonna stop here. Ciao...
"There are many nice bitches in Phuket Island" - Redang tour guide
-MaDCaT-
